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i cried today
among other things
like blowing out candles
and losing my handles
on all my realities

i cried today
among other things
like getting older
and growing much colder
when i have no other choice

i cried today
among other things
like hiding my tears
and ignoring those fears
that don't fit with celebration

It's midnight.

I cried yesterday.
And I won't let myself remember why.

It was real

If I ever had that profound moment
Where I looked into your eyes
And felt as if I could love you forever
I meant it.