Haunted

Haunted

Dreams are like the last water drops in the desert.
Needing them to last. They won't.
Dreams are like the people who just need to be better.
Needing them to change. They don't.
Dreams are the deep crevices of life's moving grounds.
Needing them to stay but they just keep shifting.
Dreams are the air beneath a wounded bird.
Needing them to fly but no pressure is lifting.

Dreams are like the seconds ticking on a clock
Wanting them to hurry. They creep.
Dreams are like eager children on a Christmas day
Wanting to awaken. They sleep.
Dreams are silent tensions between old friends.
Wanting them to loosen but they just won't give.
Dreams are palpitations of a dying heart
Wanting them to survive but they just won't live.

Dreams are like confident waves beneath a sinking ship
Begging them to settle. They change.
Dreams are like the unrefined edges of a puzzle piece.
Begging for solutions. They rearrange.
Dreams are the sand in a toppling hourglass
Begging for stability but they just can't stop
Dreams are the balloons at helium's limit
Begging for expansion but they just won't pop

Dreams are like you and me and me and you
Dreams fail and prosper because humans do
I need, I want, I beg my dreams to survive
But dreams don't live by ability to contrive

Realities are like you and me and me and you
Realities fail and prosper because humans do
I need, I want, I beg my realities to fade so fast
But realities don't die just because dreams last

Knowing and Going

I'm not good at this
Saying goodbye thing
So I stick and stay
And smile and love
When I don't want to.

Nope, I don't want to.
But comfort is my nemesis
And resting in unrest
Is still resting, I guess.
But I don't want to.

Nope, I don't want to.
I lie and I lead
Ignore emotion's greed
And living is still living, I guess.
When I don't want to.

Nope, I don't want to.
Status quo, just not my style
And stability? Not worthwhile
Even though running ruins

I still want to.

status

I hate technology.
I can't avoid what I didn't
want to know.
In fact, I can't stop myself
from logging into a stupid
website. And if I had the restraint
of someone who lived before computers,
I wouldn't have checked your page.
I wouldn't know you were dating someone else.
Who isn't me.
So I do the rational thing.
And write this blog.
Because the computer broke my heart.
And it might as well help mend it.

the others

I miss you
and you
and you
and you
and you
and you
and you
and you

I miss being with you.
And only you.

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i cried today
among other things
like blowing out candles
and losing my handles
on all my realities

i cried today
among other things
like getting older
and growing much colder
when i have no other choice

i cried today
among other things
like hiding my tears
and ignoring those fears
that don't fit with celebration

It's midnight.

I cried yesterday.
And I won't let myself remember why.

It was real

If I ever had that profound moment
Where I looked into your eyes
And felt as if I could love you forever
I meant it.

Sleep Well

The punishment for unconditional love?
Unconditional loss.